Archive for October, 2010

Brain dump.

October 12, 2010

OK.  So.

Work has been crazy busy lately, mainly because of my own procrastination with some projects over the last month or so. Obviously, that equates to a lack of posting, considering I have to post AT WORK because I am currently too poor to afford internet AT HOME. Working for a non-profit is awesome! Right?!?!

Anyway. Here is a quick update on things:

Exercise: Lately, something strange has happened to me. I have found myself wanting to go for walks. Over the summer I canceled my gym membership because I wasn’t going and I refused to continue to waste $30/month. And I will admit, I was completely and totally unmotivated for awhile. I am still trying to figure out what I’m going to do once the weather gets too cold to walk outside, but I’ll cross that bridge when I get there. I also may be taking a Zumba class tonight. I will be honest – I am scared. I am afraid of looking like a fat, uncoordinated idiot. However, I need to challenge myself and so I’m 95% sure I’m going to do it.

Food: This is where I need to do some work. Because I am an emotional eater, and because I am overwhelmed and stressed out at work,  I am having trouble not finding comfort in junk food. I have, however, been packing my lunches and eating out for meals much, much less. No more Dunkin’ Donuts for me in the mornings – I am making my own iced coffee (I am obsessed with Starbucks Iced VIA) and microwaving my own breakfast sandwich to eat on the way to work. I did “quit” Weight Watchers a month or so ago. I wasn’t going to the meetings and I felt as though I was basically paying $40/month to step on a scale once a week. I am trying to be less concerned with what the scale says from week to week and more concerned about how I FEEL and how my clothes fit. After awhile, I’ll get on a scale and see where I am.

House: I had my first house-related crisis on Saturday. I walked downstairs into my basement to do laundry and noticed water. EVERYWHERE. I tried not to freak out. Turns out my sewer line was backed up because of tree roots that had grown into the line. I didn’t even know that was possible, but that’s what Bill the Roto-Rooter man told me. I had to use every towel and rag in my house to clean up the water, and so I spent Sunday mourning the loss of $200+ dollars (because, of course, this has to happen on a Saturday, when Bill the Roto-Rooter man gets paid overtime) and doing no less than 10 loads of wash. If this doesn’t kill my 20-year old washer and dryer, I don’t know what will.

Family: My cousin S, who is 5 years younger than me, got engaged on Sunday. I am thrilled beyond words for her, and I love her fiance, A, dearly. He has been my brother’s best friend for as long as I can remember, and is like a brother to me. And my cousin is like a sister to me, so as you can imagine, their relationship was initially a little weird for both my brother and I. But we got over it pretty quickly. I would be lying though if I said I didn’t feel a little jealous. I am the oldest of the 5 cousins on my mom’s side of the family (and we are all very close) and I guess I feel like I should be the one to do everything first. While I was the first to graduate high school and college, I wasn’t the first to buy a house (that was my brother) or get engaged (that was S, obviously). I definitely won’t be the first to get married or have babies. It wouldn’t even have bothered me so much if my brother (the second oldest) was the first to get engaged or married…but for it to be S, the second to youngest, just makes me feel like I’ve failed somehow. I know it sounds kind of ridiculous, and it certainly isn’t going to stop me from being happy for them, but it just kind of stings a bit.

Other: I ended up going to my 10-year high school reunion. I swore I wasn’t going to go, but changed my mind at the last minute. I ended up having a good time, and I am glad I went. Unfortunately a lot of my good friends from high school didn’t go, but it was OK. I talked with some of my former classmates more at the reunion than I ever did in high school.

So, that’s the latest. I’ll try to keep updating a bit more as time permits. Gotta get to work!